Blessed be the name of the Lord!
This week has been filled with so many amazing blessings.
Krystal, Jenn, and Annie came down for labor day weekend and we had the best time ever. Some of my favorite quotes of Friday night were:
"Hey, do I have a camel toe?"
"This is going to blow his mind"
and "I think my favorite part was pushing that dancing guy", "yeah, Annie was all bows". (elbows)
At one point I was sitting outside a bar (sitting on someone's car outside a bar) eating a wonderful taco when I met "Alabama boy".
AB and I started chatting outside the bar then moved it inside when I finished my taco and he, his cigarette. Conversation started off casual, then somewhere (and I don't know where) turned into a theological debate. OH!, that's right, someone walked by with a "Coexists" tattoo. For some reason he showed it to me, and I grabbed it, went, "Lame!" and then pressed the Christian cross that forms the 't' and shouted, "That's where it's at!." For some reason, he thought this was rude and scoffed off. And the rest of the night AB was telling me why he doesn't believe that God exists while I gushed over who the Lord is, and called AB silly.
We went drinking, ate crepes, shopped and had late night sleepovers in the living room. And did a drunken retelling of the story of Cain and Able. (not pretty).
Then we met up with Keilly who was also in town. She's lived in America I don't know how long, but still took a million pictures.
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So last night I hung out with an old friend from high school. We were pretty good friends for about a year or so, and actually dated for a short time. I had forgotten most of the dating part and only remembered our friendship, (minus the time his dad walked in on us making out). I'm still humiliated by that to this day. Well, apparently he remembered more than I did. Like how we were valentines and had an amazing day together, until I hooked up with my ex at the end of the night. I had completely forgotten this happened, and apologized repeatedly. I can't believe that's who I was. The retelling of this story made me sick to my stomach.
We had a great night, (about 9 hours). But at one point while watching a movie on my couch, I was seriously tempted to crawl over and lay on his chest. The thought was so seducing. I knew that it would feel great,warm and familiar. And it took all the will power in the world not to. But then something interesting happened. After deciding "No" in my head, It's like the blinders were lifted and I saw the truth: That it wouldn't have made me feel good at all. I felt like a had totally exposed a lie. It probably would have been really awkward, and even if he would have been into it, what would that have meant for our hangouts in the future? It would have turned our friendship into a confusing mess, and I would have become the same, selfish girl I was in high school.
It was the most amazing revelation. The feeling of temptation was so strong, and intoxicating. I litterlly felt warm. Then all at once, poof!, it was all gone and I was completely sober to the situation and got kind grossed out. Not because of him, but because of sin. The idea of sinning in that way really grossed me out and I wanted no part of it.
I can't express enough in words the work the Lord has done. Anyone who has known me longer than a year can see Christ and His strength and love in this.
